I remember how many times you looked at me and you said “I promise you I’ll never hurt you.” & I’m not bitter about that anymore, but I promise YOU how much better it will feel when someone looks at me and says “I promise you I’ll never hurt you.” and they’ll keep that promise.
Tumblr is the only place I can just talk without someone judging what I say.
Wow..I’m so broken. I don’t even know what to do. I let myself be vulnerable again & here I am again..unable to even think because my mind has reached it’s breaking point of damage. I do not know how I am gunna function today..or tomorrow..or next week. & it sucks because while I shouldn’t let one person ruin me I feel ruined..like the world is on my shoulders and I can’t get up and it’s slowly pushing me into floor & I don’t know if I’ll ever be free..
I don’t want anything familiar anymore..I want something new. You’re so outdated and so comfortable to me. & I don’t want to have something that will never evolve or ever develop further. While forgetting you for a little while I’ve remembered you are everything I do not want.
It gets so tiring trying my best not to be damaged when inside I’m just so damaged & I can’t seem to fix myself.
Have to make a new tumblr cause mine is stupid, but I am just too lazy.
Everything is always too good to be true. I don’t know if I should lose hope in humanity or not. Let me be happy. Somehow.
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